Monday, October 18, 2004

Well, I feel warm and cozy in my stage of uneasiness. I'm settled for what I have right now. Saturday night, Tasha and I got sooo lost in Springfield...not to mention I took a turn down a one way street and then went off road in order to not kill us. We were 4-wheeling lol. I fell asleep behind the wheel yesterday morning and went off road also. That time on accident.
I think being away from Pete is the best thing for me right now. It's helping me realize how much he means to me. Though serious feelings are taking over me, which is making me a little uncomfortable, I know I'll get over them easily. Plus, I'm at the same level as this kid, so I know I won't get hurt. I'm not looking for someone else to love. I know who I love and I'm sticking to it. I just need another comfort. I need something new. And I think he knows how I feel.
So yeah, anyways, I left school early today due to the fact that I needed a break from life. Pete's coming up today so we can talk things out a bit. Spend some time together.
But with this new kid...not mentioning any names. I have never ever wanted someone so bad in my entire life. Not like "Oh my God I love him!" want him, more like a one night or hell, 20 night stand want. I have had feelings for this kid for a long time. And spending time with him the other night...well morning...was awesome! I can't stop thinking about it! I've never wanted to just kiss someone before in my whole life! AHHHH

*~*Malia*~*

Malia 9:38 AM